Thankful

I was and still am struggling,whether to continue my master studies at NCKU or not.
And I'd discussed it a few times with my second brother.
He's the one whom I'll be the first to approach whenever I'd any problems/difficulties.
He's like the "BIG-BROTHER"kind of brother whom you can really rely on and believe in.
One day I found this email lying in my inbox,it was a mail from him(excerpted):

I am encouraging you to think for yourself.
To really consider what makes you happy .. in the long-term.
It may be a difficult question and you might really not know for now.
But, I would still say, really think for yourself what happiness and success in the long-term means for you.

Do you think going to Taiwan for Master would make you happy?
Do you think starting to work in Singapore now would make you happy?
Maybe you don't know the answer to all these questions yet ..
and even mum said it herself .. you already decided to work in Singapore last time but now you changed your mind.
So, what made you change your mind?
Was it because of some enlightenment over the short period of break you had?
Like finding out how you don't want to be teacher, this might be a revelation that changes your life.
I think the best way to go about it is to ask yourself, what makes you happy?
What do you want for your own life?
20 years down the road, will you regret the decisions you make?
Thing is, I agree with some other wise people that says the age of 20 - 30 something is an age of finding our own identity.
If you have found yours, good for you.
If you have not, it may be time to start asking and searching.
What has this got to do with you going to Taiwan?
In a sense, it is a huge decision that will impact your life and ours.
With mum missing you and you experiencing life on your own, how can it not impact?:)
So, put some thoughts into it.

Yes, it is true there may be pros and cons about your decision.
Maybe Taiwan's Master graduate won't be acknowledged here in Singapore/Malaysia.
Maybe going to Taiwan is just a waste of your 2 years.
Maybe not going to Taiwan is something you'll look back on frequently in your life.
But whatever the pros and whatever the cons, always ask yourself, what do I want in my life? What do I want to achieve at the end of the day?
Will I be happy with this decision?
As a brother, I just want to encourage you to think for yourself.
If you really want to do this, and it is within my ability to support you to do so, I will do my best. Otherwise you'll still have my support regardless.

I'm not sure whether you believe in God, but I believe in the Christian God,
and my belief is that God has the best plan for me.
I plan the course of my life out, but He is the one steering the ship.
What does this mean to you?
Think and plan for your own future, but know that ultimately (if you believe in God), God has a bigger purpose for you in your life and you don't need to worry/agonize over your decisions. He is in control.

I was overwhelmed after reading the email, and I seriously believe that God has sent me him,an angel in disguise who always showed me the way where I should be going whenever I strayed and felt lost.
I thank God for giving me such a loving and caring brother.
For whatever decision I will be making at the end of the day,I am thankful for God has given me my family.
I am thankful for everything I have.