Life without Chinese *

There's no Chinese Star and i've no choice but to type in english this time...
Life SUCKS when there's NO Chinese Star, sh*t...
Things just go on and on when this PC is getting upgraded
Things like we went to Pizza Hut together,
how we discussed on the end of year trip etc.
However,the most disappointing thing during this period is that...
i never manage to pass my Grade 8 piano practical
it was in my prediction and all that stuff,
but i just cant accept it as i had wasted for around RM380,
it really bothered me for about two or three days,
but after that,i managed to forget about it
i'm 5 marks from passing that examination...
This failure will somehow imprint some trauma in my mind...
if i am to take it again,
i hope that i can pass it in a GLORIOUS way somehow
but i dont know if i still have the chance...
i'm not sure whether to continue my studies here,
or somewhere at Kuala Lumpur
My future is so near yet it seems so far

JOURNEY

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong
I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on Calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
Cause it's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you